Kevin Benko

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In Memory Of Mister Fluffy.

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.04.14


At approximately 11:45PM on 13 April 2015, Mister Fluffy, my oldest cat of twenty years old, was euthanized. Mister Fluffy had not suffered long, he jumped down from his chair, walked half way across the floor, said “meow” and laid down.

At his “meow” as was there in an instant, I put him on my chair, and I looked HARD at him, and I had realized that it was time for him to die. While I called my veterinarian, Mister Fluffy started twitching, the Veterinarian came to my apartment in about fifteen minutes, and “put him to sleep”.

Like I said, he went from good to bad in about a half an hour, and then before long, he was dead. Not much pain, not much suffering.


My ex-wife had rescued the cat when Mister Fluffy was about two years old. Thus, I had been around this particular cat for the past eighteen years, I got the cat after my divorce, so, I was Mister Fluffy’s human, and Mister Fluffy was my cat.

Every day for the past two years, I had given Mister Fluffy a piece of bacon/sausage for breakfast (sorry, mother, I never let you know that), and Mister Fluffy LOVED to lick out the bowl when I had ice cream. I spoiled my two cats rotten, because after my divorce, and because of my stroke, they were all I had.


Shodan, the other cat, is still around, and I hope that she lasts to twenty years old, or longer.

I think in about a month, I will consider getting a kitten as a companion for Shodan… I don’t know about that yet, though.

Good bye Mister Fluffy, we have traveled back and forth across the United States over the past eighteen years Oregon, Colorado, Tennessee, North Dakota, Utah, Pennsylvania, and finally to North Dakota. We had good times and bad times, but we were always there for each other. In this particular instant, I know I did the right thing when I had you euthanized. I am only sorry that you had to suffer even a little bit in the end.

Good bye Mister Fluffy, although I had been dreading this day, I had also been anticipating this day since Pennsylvania. I will miss you dearly, for you were always a faithful companion for me, and I hope that I was a faithful companion for you.

Good Bye.


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Gaslight (1944)

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.03.29


I just finished watching Gaslight (1944), yes it was an old-assed movie, but I had been thinking of watching it for about the past six months. To be honest, it we a great movie. I starred Charles Boyer, Ingrid Bergman, and Joseph Cotten. It was also the film debut of Angela Lansbury (the “Murder She Wrote” lady).

Now, I am not into doing spoilers, so I am not going to tell you anything about the movie. But, if you can find the movie you seriously need to watch this movie. Unlike modern movies, this movie proceeds through the plot slowly and patiently, piece at a time, not giving very many clues to spoil it for you. Everything does come together in the end, when all the cards are layed out during the last 15 minutes of this nearly 2-hour movie.

The actors were perfect, the antagonist (Boyer) was a subtle but total dickhead, the protagonist (Bergman) was, of course, beautiful, and in the end she played her role very well, the hero (Cotten) was a real true hero, and in the end everything was, finally. happy happy joy joy.

Again, I would suggest that you see this movie to see how a real movie plot was done.


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What’s the State’s Interest in this Boy’s Foreskin?

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.03.26


I have read an article wherein the following events had occurred:

There was this woman, in Florida, that had a male child. The mother, rightly, refused to circumcise the male child {}.

So, fast forward to approximately four years.

The mother was told that the agreement between the mother and father had agreed to circumcise the child as a baby, the woman had refused and has now an arrest warrant by Circuit Judge Jeffery Dana Gillen. But, why? Apparently, the father and the mother had never been married, although in 2012, they had signed a “parenting plan” that had explicitly said that the infant would be circumcised, and the father would make the arrangements. However, the mother had later decided to not snip the child. And as a result, the father took her to court.

However, in Florida, a “parenting plan” is supposed to apply “in all cases involving time-sharing with minor children, even when time-sharing is not in dispute.” A “parenting plan” is not an instrument for this type of procedure. So, why is the court even getting concerned with this issue? Why in the hell does the state want to enforce this contract that is not an issue in the contract?

There is no religious need by either party to circumcise the child for either the mother or the father. However, the father wants his child to be circumcised, but the mother doesn’t. However, his reason to circumcise the child is that it is “just the normal thing to do.” However, the father didn’t start pressing the issue until 2013, two years after the birth of the child.

However, in an emergency motion that was filled last week, the FOUR-YEAR OLD CHILD is aware of what is happening and is, rightfully, terrified of getting his penis cut.

So, as thing stand now, a mental health professional, probably a social worker rather than a real mental health professional, will evaluate the boy, and an independent guardian will be appointed to represent the boy’s interests {}
OK, I don’t know who is right or who is wrong in this issue. On the one hand, I do support men’s rights, and father’s rights. On the other hand, circumcision is absolutely WRONG, and I applaud the woman for not having the boy circumcised. Also, the child is self aware, and not a baby anymore, and the boy understands what may happen.

Additionally, this is not a legitimate part of the “parenting plan” in Florida, so it is not a legitimate part of the contract.

Now, for my own opinion is although I was circumcised fifty years ago, I had started resenting that I had been circumcised approximately 25-30 years ago. I now believe that circumcision is a barbaric practice that has occurred for the wrong reasons, and the future generations have continued the practice because the father generally wants these boys to “look like their fathers”. So the myths of circumcision continues, mostly.

Now, I have no idea how many boys are circumcised at birth, an I really don’t want to know. But I would imagine that a HOE (Horizontally Oriented Entertainer) would know. I would like to know that in 2015, we have crawled out of the dark ages and we do not circumcise our babies anymore.

So, who is right in this case and who is wrong?


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Concerning The Stupid Idea Of Living For The Future.

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.02.24


Some people tend to say stupid things. One such stupid statement is that we should preserve our resources for the future, and do without those resources in the present. These people who say such things are generally “Social Justice Warriors” of some sort or another.

In my opinion, I think these “Social Justice Warriors” are very wrong. Let me explain:

A minor point is to ask the “Social Justice Warriors”, at what point in the future are our future generations allowed to use these resources? And that is a serious question. Is it one generation? Is it ten generations? Hell, will some future generation actually be allowed to use those resources at all?

Based on the mindset of the “Social Justice Warriors”, I would imagine there is absolutely no future generation to use those natural resources. In my opinion, that is bullshit, but is also expected.

But my major point is this:

What we have today has come down to us from the past. Our technology over time has grown until there is no single person that knows all about everything about even a single technical subject. About one hundred years ago, it was possible to know EVERYTHING about Mathematics. But that simple fact is no longer possible. Even if an individual Mathematician attempted to know everything about a single small piece of Mathematics, he would fail.

That is because the technology of modern science is such that it is growing faster and faster every DAY. Thus, everything we have learned from past generations has given us today’s technology to the point of our medical science was not available ten years ago. Our current plastics and polymers depend on our oil production, as a waste process of our oil production.

There are medical procedure that are in common use today that were not available at all ten years ago. Personally, twenty years ago, I would have died if I had not had a procedure from ten years ago.

Thus, when our current generation is “wasting” our “precious” resources, these resources are being used today and tomorrow to benefit future generations. That is the way technology works. DUH!

Now, our current fracking technology was not known prior to 1947, and the first commercial application of fracking was in 1950. Today, really today, in North Dakota, there is an assload of oil under western North Dakota, and through fracking, that technology is being used and has changed the global price of oil in Saudi Arabia.

So, our technology, and use of resources from the past is benefiting our current generation. And, so, our current use of resources will benefit the future generations.

We don’t need to “look after” the future generations, the future generations will develop new technology in their time to benefit themselves.

But, suppose we listen the “Social Justice Warriors” and prevent us from using our resources today? Can you tell your children and grandchildren that you chose to NOT develop technology anymore and they would never be able to use that technology since the understanding has faded away in the past? Could you tell the future generations must suffer and starve because the food that they need is somewhere far away, and they will not use the resources to save those starving people half way around the world?

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Turn Down The Thermostat Or Not?

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.02.21


I live in Fargo, North Dakota (by choice) and in the winter it gets cold, as North Dakota is the fifth coldest state in the United States. So, anyway, I am one of those people who turn down the thermostat at night or when I go out for more than an hour.

Now, I would imagine that some of you people out there will hear that and suggest that I don’t do that. Well, when I checked on the Internet about half of the people said I should turn down my thermostat, and about half the people said I should not do that. So, that was of no help to me, but after thinking about this dilemma for a few minutes, I have decided to continue turning down the thermostat at night, and I will make an attempt to explain it to you.

The Explanation:

Quite simply, it is all about difference in temperature.

Also, your heat is no more nor less efficient when you turn it off for a few hour or not, so the fact that you left your heat off for a few hours does not make ANY difference.

Now, for keeping the thinking simple, I will assume that when you turn down the thermostat the temperature in you place drops suddenly, and when you turn on the thermostat it heats up suddenly.

This because to use realistic number will need differential equations, and due to my stroke, differential equations are beyond my understanding.

Also let us assume that the outside temperature is zero degrees Fahrenheit, your high temperature is eighty degrees Fahrenheit, and your low temperature is forty degrees Fahrenheit.

Thus, the difference in temperature for your low temperature is forty degrees, and the difference in temperature for your high temperature is eighty degrees.

So, at your low temperature you need to pay 40-money to keep that temperature. And at your high temperature you need to pay 80-money to keep that temperature.

Now, suppose you are on a 12-hour schedule where your low temperature is 12 hours and your high temperature is 12 hours. So, if you do not turn your heat down, you pay 24*80 = 1920-money to heat your place. However, if you turn the thermostat then you pay 12*80+12*40 = 1440-money to heat your place. 1920-1440 = 480.

Thus my scheme will save 480-money when compared to someone who keeps the heat on.

The only downside is a minor inconvenience for me, but that inconvenience is worth it for me, although you mileage may vary.

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What The Fuck Is Up With President’s Day?

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.02.17


Yesterday was “President’s Day”. Now, originally, when I was a child, in elementary school, there were two holidays, Washington’s Birthday and Lincolns’s birthday, we were not given off from school on those days. But somehow, for some reason, these two “holidays” were combined and called “President’s Day”.

What is up with that?

Now, depending on the state in question, this holiday is commemorate George Washington, George Washington and Abraham Lincoln, Washington, Lincoln, and Jefferson, or a combination of all of the presidents. This holiday pisses me off, regardless of which president or presidents are being commemorated.

Why does this holiday piss me off?

First off, the United States is a constitutionally controlled republic, and, thus, it is not, and never was, a monarchy. As such, there is no one that deserves to be treated as such. Hence, get rid of president’s day because the United States is not a monarchy, and the USA cannot stomach such a concept. Get rid of the trappings of monarchy and get rid of president’s day.

Second, every single president, starting with George Washington, has harmed this country. And for those of you who need a history lesson, you should recall from history that the Whiskey Rebellion, wherein George Washington order federal troops to fire upon West Pennsylvania citizens of the United States.

And every president thereafter screwed people over until we have Obama openly instituting socialized medical care for the United States. Thus, there is no president under the constitution that deserves my respect, and those of you who are aware of history should feel the same way.

In my opinion, prior to the constitution, when we were under the articles of confederation, that was probably the best system of government. It required unanimous consent to do anything, the federal government had no power to do anything unless they had unanimous consent, and each president served for exactly ONE YEAR….

Aaahhh… the good old days….

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Let Us Consider The Farce Of Valentines Day.

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.02.02


St Valentines Day was originally a formal public worship or celebration of one the early Christian saints names Valentinus. Several mythologies were invented for the various Valentines that belonged to 14 February, and had been later added to later list of martyrs to justify the reason for people celebrating the common holiday. One set of mythologies on this said that Saint Valentine of Rome was imprisoned for performing weddings for soldiers who were forbidden to marry. And that these priests who did the marriages were persecuted under the Roman Empire. {}

There are some other such nonsense that justify the existence of Valentines Day in the modern era, although the tale concerning the original Saint Valentine seem to have no actual history other than by the Catholic and Anglican churches. Which, in my opinion, are suspect.

Now, for some reason, the greeting card industry has taken a firm grip on the mythology of Valentines Day, and in 2013 the the average spending is estimated to be approximately $131 on Valentines Day every year. But, of course, it is almost alway men that give Valentine’s presents to woman, with very little, if any, men receive anything other than a $1 card on the occasion. So looking at this statistically and realistically, men spend approximately $262 for a women on Valentines Day and receive absolutely nothing on the “holiday”. So, in essence, this is a women’s holiday. So you had better not resist keeping your money in your wallet. Instead, you should all be a “good man” and just part with the money to buy your wife/girlfriend a damn gift.

Of course, I will have absolutely nothing to do with Valentine’s Day.

And, in my opinion, neither should you!

Seriously, why should we part our hard earned money for some damn foolish non-existent holiday that only benefits the greeting card industry? Hell, the greeting card industry is trying to create more holidays to get us to buy these damn little cards for every occasion. However, the primary recipient is women. Men, in the past, would work long hours and would have to part with their hard earned money on this single day where women would, essentially, tell the men that if the man doesn’t spend enough money on this single non-holiday, that he was a piece of shit.

Now, of course, the women would never say these things directly, but that is how the women feel. It’s like another Christmas for women. Hell, it’s been slightly less than two months after Christmas, so the women should get an expensive gift.



And what do men get? Mostly men get an insignificant card. And then, of course, men MUST take the women out for a meal in an expensive restaurant.

And let’s talk about the experience in the restaurant.

First off, a great deal of these restaurants earn a great deal of money on Valentine’s Day. And the restaurants know that. So you need a reservation, and you really cannot enjoy yourself because about 45-50 minutes after you sit, the waiter is trying to hurry you about for the next reservation. Thus, you do not have the time to enjoy your meal. So, if for example, you practice mindfulness, you just do not have the time to experience your meal before you are shuffled out.

So, in essence, you are treated like veal. you are rushed in and rushed out and you are out of there in less than a hour.

Second, the waiter/waitress are stressed. Severely stressed. The restaurant is making a great deal of meals in a relatively short period of time. And it is up to the wait staff to make certain that every one gets in and out quickly. Now, since this only occurs a few times a year, they really cannot afford to hire permanent people all the time, so the wait staff is always going to be understaffed. And they will be tired.

So, you are going to get your worst service on Valentines Day from the wait staff. Why do it? And why even go near a restaurant on Valentine’s Day? Or the day after?

And since the restaurant is doing all of this business in such a short period of time, the restaurant is going to inevitably under-cook your food.

In my opinion, Valentine’s Day is the day that the food inspectors should be inspecting restaurants. It is when people who are under stress is when the truth comes out.

All I am saying is that, in my opinion and observation, Valentine’s Day is a crock. It has always been a crock, and it will always be a crock. So, why don’t you do what you really want to do, why must you behave like someone else wants you to behave. It is far cheaper to eat at home, in general, it is far safer to eat at home if you cook your own food.

In addition, men, why do put up with this bullshit on Valentine’s Day? Has your women shamed you into spending money on that day? Has your women shamed you into going to a restaurant on the worst possible day to visit a restaurant?

You should spend your money on what you know you need, not on what someone else needs. If she wants to eat substandard food in a restaurant, shuffled through like a veal calf, then she can go out alone if she really wants it.

Boycott Valentine’s Day!

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I Had A Doctor’s Appointment, Today.

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2015.01.26


I had a doctor’s appointment today. That is because I am Fifty years-old and that means I have an examination ever year, whether I want it or not.

The only thing that he told me of any importance is that my iron levels were low. Now, a few years ago, my blood test had noted that I had low iron, so I was on Ferrous Gluconate (FG), one pill twice a day. About after two years of that stuff, and my blood test had shown that my iron levels were OK, so my doctor pulled from the ferrous gluconate, and he would see what happened. Today, he told me that my iron levels were pretty low, so, once again, I was put on the FG, probably for the rest of my life. My current dosage is one pill twice a day with each pill being 325 MG of FG.

I am probably, for some reason, anemic. Which is odd, because I eat red meat every day, because I HATE chicken, turkey, quail, pheasant, and other birds. But still, I have become anemic. Perhaps, when my iron raises the doctor will reduce my dosage. Now, I have become tired over the past few months, and my low iron is probably to blame.

The problem with FG is that it turns my … hmmm… shit black. Now, this would be no problem for a normal person, but I have had an entero-cutaneous fistula for the past nine years, and I will not have the surgery to attempt to correct it, because it could reopen, and it could be made worse by the surgery. And, I am on Warfarin for the rest of my life, and I need to note if I am bleeding, and with my shit turning black, I cannot tell if I am bleeding from the Warfarin, bleeding from the fistula, ar my shit is black because I am taking the FG.

So, life sucks in a minor way for me with this situation.

However, my doctor had told me that my cholesterol level were low. Well, not just merely low, but pretty damn low. Now, A few years ago, around 2012, I had a blood test and that doctor had noted that my cholesterol level at the upper end of normal. That doctor had wanted to prescribe Statins, to which I said, NO. But, over the past few years, I had changed my diet. See, my current doctor said that I probably had a good diet.

Then I started to tell him about my diet.

I eat red meat, I generally avoid starches and sugars, I generally don’t eat fruits, because of my fistula, I cook everything in LARD, BUTTER, or olive oil. According to some people, I should be FULL of cholesterol that is blocking my heart. But it isn’t. And it is not my genetics. I don’t drink soda or fruit juices, I put a teaspoon of sugar in my coffee, but the last time I had a soda was about a year ago. And, seriously, that diet is, in my opinion, the reason my cholesterol is so damn low. Also, I avoid sugar-free and low-fat foods like the plague.

I am dead serious.

I do not subscribe to any particular diet, I just eat whatever I want, and I generally smother it in butter. I eat a liverwurst sandwich about 5 times a week, I have bacon and eggs for breakfast, I use LARD to lubricate my cast iron, and my diet is good.

OK, I had some Bagna Cauda on one occasion: olive oil, butter, garlic, anchovies, hot peppers. Heat it slowly and dip some fresh cut vegetables in the concoction. My fistula couldn’t handle it, so I will never do that again. But it was GOOD. And is smelled up the apartment and the apartment above.

Yes, I have some medical issues, but those are medical problems. I am healthy.


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Men, Voting, And Military Service

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2014.11.10

I had stated in a previous post that women have never earned their right to the vote, for the most part.

This statement was that men did have the right to a vote, since men are disposable because most men have no choice to get drafted into military service. However, since women have a choice to enter military service, and if they choose to not enter military service– no harm, no foul.

Now, I stand by what I had said, for the most part. My true beliefs on the matter are probably a bit harsher. Since tomorrow is Armistice Day, also known as Veterans Day, Remembrance Day, and Poppy Day, I am in a certain mindset right now. Additionally, we had voted on 4 November and I am also thinking about that event.

Most people will disagree with my position on voting, since I haven’t voted since 1997. However, I do have some very good reasons:

First, if we assume the honesty of politicians, there has never been any candidate that I totally agree with , and since the lesser of the evils is still evil, I cannot, in good conscience, vote for a politician I disagree with in any manner. Maybe if there is a politician that I agree with, I will vote, but not until I am aware of that mythical politician.

Second, I know that during the primary election the democrat is talking as he is the most representative of that party. And the same is true for the republicans. However, during the general elections, these parties present themselves as centrist. So, who are the politicians? What do they really believe? For that reason, I distrust politicians.

Third, most politicians are probably psychopaths. It seems to me that psychopathy attracts politicians or maybe vice versa. I have taken a personal interest in psychopaths, as my sister, a real live psychopath, had screwed me over about 1_1/2 years ago.


So, what this have to do with Veterans Day? These ideas I am about to present are directly from the book “Starship Troopers”, by Robert A. Heinlein was published in 1959 (the book has absolutely nothing to do with the 1997 movie). In the book, there are some important ideas:

First: The right to vote is a privilege reserved in military service, directly or indirectly.

Second: A politician must have served in the military service.

Now, as I have earned the right to vote, although I do not choose to do so. I seriously think that an able-bodied women has no obligation to go to military service if the politicians say that they must fight, and die, on a battlefield. Then the woman who does not enter into military service is, probably, a parasite.

Additionally, a politician who doe not enter military service, and for this military service that means active duty, no national guards or reserves allowed, then the politicians are, likewise, parasites.
How can the politicians lead us into war unless they know, first hand, what they are getting into? Unless the politicians understand military service directly, they do not have the right to be in charge of anything other than a quicky-mart or a burger-barn.

Of course, as usual, this is merely my opinion.

Have a good, but sad, Veterans Day.

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Personhood / Right To Life / Male Abortions

Posted by Kevin Benko on 2014.11.06


On 4 November 2014, North Dakota had rejected the damnable “personhood” amendment. In the past, Colorado and Mississippi had also made attempts in the past to pass the personhood amendment. See, the wording of measure 1 would have been simpler in North Dakota that in the other two states. The wording was “The inalienable right to life of every human being at any stage of development must be recognized and protected.”

Yup, even though the people that had been trying to pass this damnable amendment in the past, the people of North Dakota have rejected it, approximately 2 “no” votes for every single “yes” vote. And even though this has failed in North Dakota, every one else needs to be aware of this type of amendment in every state in the United States, since these “personhood” people will probably not stop anytime soon.

These “personhood” amendments are intended to act as an argument against Roe vs Wade as an attempt to start a legal fight to make abortions illegal again. And, even though I a man, it is important for me to allow the woman to opt out of parenthood. Even if I cannot do that as a man, I would like the opportunity to opt out of parenthood at some point in the future.

Well, lets explain this disagreement of mine again, because I can never go through this argument too many times.

A women has the inalienable right to opt out of parenthood, through an abortion or adoption. This has been the right of a women since approximately 1973. Now, one way of getting equality is through overturning then banning that Roe v Wade result. However, I would propose that in order to gain equality for men, men should have the same rights that women have had over the past forty-one years.

Let me explain further.

A women has the option to opt out of parenthood, whereas a man does not have that option. My suggestion would be that we need a constitutional amendment to allow a man opt out of being a parent. The details would need to be worked out, but the primary rule is that a man could choose the option to not be a parent.

Now, this does not in any way, shape, or form, require a women to have an abortion. I think the man should have the same option as a women. And if the man opts out of being a parent, the women has the sole responsibility of taking care of the child.

Really, what is wrong about giving the man the same option as women have had for the past forty-one years?

See, that is a better option that the “personhood” amendments. This would place men and women into a state of equality with the option to not be a parent. Yes, there are some difficulties with my suggestion, but these difficulties are problems that can easily be worked out and the problems are a great deal more manageable that those “personhood” amendments.

Also, in my opinion, it is easier to give men the same rights that women have than it is to remove a pre-existing right from all people. Although, the “personhood” people are probably not rational.

The “personhood” people have slightly changed their tune several times in the past to the point where the “personhood” people are actually misrepresenting themselves as being “pro-choice” rather than the true fact that the “personhood” people are attempting to ban abortions. Additionally, the “personhood” people are, for the most part, trying to distract us with false evidence by telling us that is not a “personhood” amendment.

But it really is a “personhood” amendment.

Nevertheless, North Dakota has not embarrassed itself since North Dakota has rejected the “personhood” amendment.


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